Sunday, May 16, 2010

The yellow flowers are for my cousin Gilda. She lived for 6 days only
From the left..My uncle, my aunt, my grandma and my grandpa...
Paris- dipping into the very cold Parker Lake water...



We had a wonderful day together..He is probably the only one that has much interest in listening to me go on and on about family history...lol...
Our time at the cemetery went very nicely. We put the flowers on the graves and then spent some time walking the cemetery to find other family members..

We found my great-grandfather...and great-grandmother..
He was born in New York in 1864..His parents had come over from Wales...
I had found this information on Ancestry.com....I had no idea that I would find some of these family members right in the very cemetery that I had played in as a child...(yes, we used to play in the cemetery..Mostly riding our bikes because there were great roads with hills.)

After the cemetery we made our yearly trip to the school yard..I have so many memories of summers spent playing there..and one semester of actually going to this very school..When I was about 6 or 7. My Mom had cancer. She went thru surgery. We went up north to stay with family.

I certainly remember this time with fond memories..I just wish I had asked more about it as I got older..Anyway......


After that we went to Parker Lake...Took our shoes off and walked in the water a bit..We picked up a couple small oddly shaped rocks to bring home for our *Parker Lake* collection..lol..

Then it was off to The Dells...We had Chinese for lunch..not the best food for sure..Although Paris liked his meal..

I had given Paris 40.00 in a card for his birthday that morning...
He was deciding on the trip up what he would buy..lol...
We walked the strip. Went to Wizard World (not the actual name)..lol..He bought a mood ring..I had to laugh at that one...(not so he could see of course)..

Then we stopped at the fudge store..oh what a mistake that was..because it was way to good and even though I bought a very small piece, it was still expensive and way to much fat...
Oh well, it's a done deal...lol..

We went to the store that my grandmother worked at for years..It allowed her to install modern conveniences to her farmhouse..

Then we tried to find the campgrounds that Carlos and I had stayed at three years ago...I don't know why I felt the need to find it..
I tried to tell myself that even though he and I had stayed there, it was a nice place and I might want to camp there again....

We finally found it..I'm glad that we did..I think it let me release some of the memories..(I hope)
It wasn't as nice as I had remembered. It isn't a place that I would pick to camp at...
I wonder if I thought it was nicer because I had memories of having such a nice time there.
It was one of the trips we had done that went so well..

I've been feeling some anger and sadness recently...trying to deal with it..working on letting it go.
I think it's being alone...I know that I'm okay being alone. I do it..I make ends meet..But I would like to have someone in my life to spend time with...
I know it will come when it is supposed to.. I know that I have to be completely over my life with Carlos before I can be okay with someone else..
I'm just tired of being by myself....

Oh well,,,enough with that pity party..I will let God lead me down the path He wants me to go down....:)

Paris and I were then going to play miniature golf...Until we saw how long the line was...We both opted to just head home..
On the way we stopped at a Walmart and he bought a nerf sword..He walked out of the store with 20.00 left...

He told me that he had a really nice time and was glad that he had come with me...Just what I needed to hear..

Have a wonderful day!!

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