Monday, May 21, 2012

Laylana...this sweet little girl will not wake up for me..lol..
My sweet Cameron..Out to eat with my daughter and I...


Cameron spent Saturday night with me..We didn't do a whole lot on Saturday..played some games and watched some tv..

Sunday my daughter and I were going to take him to a carnival..the web sight said it started at 10:30am..we got there at 11:00..As it turned out, it didn't start until 12:00.. It was very disappointing..But Cameron handled it well for the most part..

We decided to take him out for lunch to one of our favorite places to go..
Quaker Steak & Lube...oh my gosh..THE best food..the one disappointment that we had is that they are no longer serving sweet potato fries..they were sooo yummy..I guess this place changes it's menu often..lol..maybe not the best place for me to go since I don't like change..lol...

We took Cameron home after a trip to k-mart..he was able to find the newest fad toy that he is into..

I got to spend a few moments with Laylana.. but she will not wake up..
She likes to be awake at night..She is still so darned tiny..and oh the faces she makes when she is sleeping..it is too funny..

My daughter and I are planning a camping trip for this coming week-end...Yay...I took a day of vacation on Friday so we can have an extended week-end..
We will be celebrating Paris's 15 birthday..I can't believe that he is going to be 15 already..time goes by so fast..
Monique and her boyfriend Brian will be coming up Friday after he gets off of work..

My step-daughter Nickie and her three girls will be going camping with us...It should be interesting..lol..
They all love camping so it should be fun..

I think we have everything ready..We spent some time last week going through all of our camping gear and buying what we didn't have..The only things we should have to buy is the cake and any fresh meat we want to grill..

I went to an employment agency today..the woman was VERY nice..we had a great talk.. she would like to find something for me right here in Germantown in the industrial park..the only snag?? they are usually looking for someone that can start right away and I would like to give two weeks notice..but I did tell her that if need be, I could go with a week. I figure I could work both of them for a week if I need too..
So, fingers crossed:)

I also got an application for Jeremy..I'm going to have him fill it out tonight and then take it back tomorrow..they usually do interviews right away..
I just gave him a haircut today..so with a nice outfit, he should make a nice impression...

I'm having some stress involving my brother..I haven't been answering his phone calls..(He has some mental issues that he won't acknowledge).
There is nothing I can do to help him..I have been trying to help him a little financially these last few (well, more than a few) months and I just can't do anymore..
The problem is, he will never be able to keep a job if he doesn't admit he has some issues and actually get help for them..
Plus he has drinking issues..Things are never his fault..someone is always doing something to cause his problems..so on and so forth..

I was not raised to turn my back on anyone..especially my brothers..I just can't do it anymore..
I sent him twenty dollars the other day with a note stating that that was the best I could do..I also told him that I am under a lot of stress also and needed some time to myself..Hoping that he would not call at least for a few days...
Ugh..now as I write this I start crying again..I FEEL SO BAD for not being there for him..

I can't win either way..I feel stress if I help him and I feel stress if I don't..lol..now I'm a mess..

I sometimes try to think of ALL of the times I would have like to have had some help taking care of my Mom. Not that I didn't want to..I just wanted a little help once in a while...
He didn't give me any help until the year before my Mom went into the nursing home..
Oh crap..I don't know what I'll do..I'll just have to take it a day at a time.
I will send him another twenty dollars tomorrow..that's all I can do right now..

Oh well, I guess I've made this post depressing enough..lol..time for me to get it in gear and head out to a few jobs...lol..

Have a good week:)



Monday, May 7, 2012

It was not a good day today:(

I went to drop off the application for the job I talked about. Only to be told that the position had been filled.. I asked if I could leave my application in case something came open and she said no, they don't keep them..
 I was disappointed but what can you do? I guess it wasn't meant to be and I will move forward..
If I have time tomorrow, I will stop at an employment agency that always has ads in the paper..At this point, it certainly can't hurt..

I had a strange experience today..while I was driving no less..
It has happened once before and it scares the heck out of me.
I am fine and then all of a sudden, I feel light headed. It's almost like feeling dizzy..My vision doesn't get blurry but it isn't totally focused..it only lasts a few minutes but it's scary..
Especially since I don't have health insurance..
I am going to try to get into the free clinic tomorrow afternoon.
I don't know if they will do much since the problem happens sporadically. I have had issues in the past with my blood pressure being VERY low..maybe there is a correlation there..Maybe I should keep an eye on that..

I also get strange migraine headaches..although they call them migraines I really don't get severe pain..thank goodness..
But I do get the weird vision before the headache..It's like a shimmering half moon..
I'm thinking that this might have something to do with what is happening now..Oh crap..I just can't afford to have any problems..
 So, if you could, please say a prayer that whatever this is goes away or at the very least, doesn't happen also.

Guess I'll try to get some sleep..I have a whole list of things that I need to take care of tomorrow..

Hope everyone has a great week:) 

Saturday, May 5, 2012



Oh my gosh this computer is giving me a  headache today...

First I had problems with my bank account. I had changed my password yesterday and for some reason I had problems with it today..Finally got that taken care of..
Then wanted to add a few photos to my blog and had to figure out the new format..UGH...

Anyway...I was finally able to post my pictures of yesterdays paint job..
Originally I had only painted the portion above the kitchen cabinets..I wasn't sure I wanted to paint the back splash because the color is a bit dark...
Well, I painted it and I LOVE it..I may not be able to do anything about the ugly counter top and cabinets, but I think the green makes them look better..White in a kitchen just does not work for me..

I'm thinking of doing an accent wall in my bedroom..it needs a punch of color..Just not sure which color to do it in..

My daughter and I along with two of my grandkids and Monique's boyfriend sat outside today for two hours to get coupons for the Dells..We save so much with these..We're able to do things that would otherwise be too costly..
We were smart this time though and took our chairs along..lol..

We will be going to the Dell's at the end of this month for a three day camping trip to celebrate Paris's birthday..hard to believe that he will be 15...oh how time flies...lol...

I will be filling out an application at a factory that Monique's boyfriend Brian works at..Starting pay is about 11.00 an hour..It's only about 13 miles from my house, so the drive wouldn't be too bad and he says the work isn't too hard..
I'm going to keep my fingers crossed that I get hired..It has to be easier than what I'm doing now and the hours would certainly be better..

I would NEVER be a manager again...I am sooo very tired of listening to people complain, not do their work and living with such erratic hours...
 To top it all off..we have a new girl working at the office and in the two weeks that she has been there she has offended every person that works for our company..Including the bosses wife..lol..
She may know office work..but sure doesn't know people..
She has talked condescending to twice now and I've already made up my mind that if it happens again, I'm going to let her know that that is not working with me...

I had estimated her age at last 30's..I just found out that she's only 23...lol...

I got to spend an hour with my newest granddaughter on Thursday..She is still such a little peanut.. Cameron and Destiny were happy to have me spend some time at their house too.. I told them I would come over next week and take them to the park for a bit...
 It's nice to be so loved...and even though they love you when they get older, they just don't have alot of spare time for grandma's..lol..
So you really need to take advantage of it while you can:)

Well, time to get some more stuff done around here...
Hope you're having a wonderful week-end:)