Sunday, January 26, 2014

I miss my grandson so much...I can not even imagine going thru my whole life never seeing him again..I can't imagine it ever getting easier to live with...

My daughter and I went thru some of his stuff this week-end..We washed all of his clothes and got some ready for the dry cleaners..
I brought one of his hats home with me..I put it in a frame..

We do try to do some normal every day stuff too...going out for a bite to eat, hang out with the kids and watch movies...(when they have time for us) lol...

Dealing with the loss of JJ makes dealing with the stress at work even harder...ugh..I have a couple of the CNA's pissed off because they blame me for having to do their work..Uh, hello, you don't take a job working with the elderly if you're not going to do what you're supposed to..I WILL let my boss know what is going on...
I'm actually thinking of trying to find a different job...I was so excited when I got this job because it is days, has insurance and isn't overly far from my house (well, except when it is snowing)..
The truth is, I don't make enough an hour for the work I do. I pay $140.00 a month in insurance and can't use it because I can't afford the co-pay and the deductable...It absolutely sucks..
I fell in my parking lot this last Thursday..Hurt my right hand and couldn't go to the doctor...I knew if it was broken that the only thing they would do is put a hand splint on it and I did that myself..Thankfully, it worked and now today it is much better...
If I had gone to the doctor they would have done an x-ray and along with the office visit, it would have been alot...I just think it sucks that you pay for insurance that you can not use....

Well, I guess I've complained enough for one day so I will end this....

I love you J....