Thursday, April 17, 2014

When I was younger, I was going to go out for St. Patty's Day..
My mom said that we were not Irish..hum...okay..I'll still celebrate...lol...
I had asked what we were..She stated, German, I think English and a little Indian ( thought she was making a joke with this one)..
Well, After I got into ancestry.com, I found that I really did have some Indian...On my fathers side.
My daughter didn't put too much stock into all I had to say on this subject..Soooo, she did the ancestry.com DNA...and guess what?? She is 17% IRISH...lol...Now, that could be on her dads side..I had not heard that one..I knew English and Dutch...
She is also 4% Native American....Yeah..at least I was right on that one..
I decided that I would like to know more about my own DNA..People think that EVERYONE has some Indian heritage..and that's simple not true..It will be interesting to see what my percentage is..
I should hear something with a week or two...

My night time job (and only job at the moment) will be coming to an end...My boss is once again showing that he really doesn't have any empathy for anyone..and that is upsetting..
I clean two different banks for him..They are not in the best areas. But I just keep a look out for anything suspicious..I have never had any problems..
The one bank had a break in not too long ago..I think the night before I started..they break in for the change machines..I think that time they took the whole machine..as it turned out, they thought it was an inside job because the alarms had not been working for a day or two because of work being done in the bank..This particular bank has had this happen a few times..

Yesterday afternoon, my account manager called to say that they had gotten a call from the bank and they requested that we leave the lobby lights on at all TCF banks...Okay....
I didn't really think much about it...just thought they were trying to be proactive....
NOT SO MUCH...
I got to the 2nd bank last night and noticed there was a machine broken sign on it...honestly didn't think anything of it..
Later I walked into the one small office and finally noticed that the window had been broken out and then boarded up with ply wood...
I was not a happy camper because I realized that my boss probably knew about the actual break in and didn't let me know..
His thinking is that they aren't going to break in while you're there...
I called my account manager and let her know...I also told her that I did not want to continue working at either of these banks..
She said she under stood and did not blame me one bit for not wanting to be there..I told her I would stay until they find someone but would prefer  that they do it ASAP..
I also let her know that I would send Dave (our boss) an e-mail..
I did let him know that I would like to take a building at a different location if he had something available..(which he always does).
This is the reply I got from him " We will look for replacements for all TCF locations immediately..Thank you for the heads up."
There was no mention of me working at a different location..hum..
I've worked for Dave for a long time...He didn't care when I was the account manager, I don't know why I thought he would worry about my safety at these banks...
I also know from the tone of his email that he is pissed...Can you imagine someone being pissed because you don't feel safe?
Here's my thinking..These guys that break into banks don't care about anything...With all of the lights being left on now, the next step might be, Let's get the cleaner when she is taking out the garbage or leaving the bank...Hell, they wouldn't have to worry about breaking glass or an alarm...to be honest, I'm surprised that it hasn't escalated to that already...and I'm not taking a chance that they won't think of that next..
Shame on my boss for not caring........

Wow, I've turned this into a book......Just venting...lol...

Have a good one..the week-end is almost here:) 

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

It's been a busy day...
I've been transferring vhs tapes (yes,vhs) to Dvd...
The tapes I am doing now are Monique, JJ and Paris's birth tapes..With a little misc. thrown in..

It was hard watching JJ's of course..But actually it was harder watching the tapes where he is 3 years old..those tore my heart in two...but they also brought a smile to my face watching him run and play...

There will always be hard times like these..that I know for sure...

I've also answered a few ads on Care.com for housekeeping..
I hope I get some replies...Next I need to put an ad in the small community news papers...

Just got a call from my account manager for my night time job..
She said that when I leave the banks, they want me to leave the lobby lights on...Mainly because the one bank keeps getting broke into so they can steal the change machine...YES, the whole machine...lol...It happened recently..but they think it's an inside job because it happened when the alarm system wasn't working..

It makes me a little leary of working in these particular buildings for sure..I will probably let my boss know that as other buildings open up I would like to know what and where they are...Until then, at least I'm making some extra money until my business takes off..

Other than that, not much is new..I really do lead a very boring life...lol...

Have a good one!!!!

Thursday, April 10, 2014

I find it hard to watch the local news..Violence abounds...
No wonder I don't watch it often....

I didn't accomplish much today...lol..One thing at a time..I guess the rest will wait for me, as my Mom used to say..

I put a new rug in Jeremy's room..I think it's a 5x7..We have carpeting but with this, I don't have to worry so much about spills..
Yesterday at work, his phone got wet..He lays it down somewhere close to him so he can listen to music as he works..well, he works in a kitchen...lol..Of course, he had it in a place that he thought it would  be safe..
When he got home, I had him take the battery off and we put both parts in a bag of rice...
TaDa,,,,this morning he put it all back together and so far so good..
I took him to work and so I'll find out later if it is still working..the good news is that if he needs a new one, he can afford to pay for it:)
I can't remember if he has insurance on it or not...

We are finally getting into the 50s..it is so nice to have the windows open again....I love it..I'm trying to get myself in the frame of mind to start walking again...I really need to loss 20 lbs.
and that would certainly help with that..
I also need to stop eating junk food....ugh.....

Well, that's it for now:)Time to get moving doing SOMETHING..lol...

Sunday, April 6, 2014

It's a bright sunny day today..Much needed for sure...

Friday was a hard day..It marked 6 months since my grandson died.
I go by the date: 10-4-13...The official day and the one that my daughter goes by is: 10-5-13....

Does it really matter? No..I personally feel like it is the 4th so that is what I go by....

We took his uniforms to the dry cleaner..that was so hard for my daughter to do..she broke down while we were there..she is terrified that they will loss something..
I made sure to ask them if the clothes will leave the building, the woman assured me that they wouldn't..she even put it on the tag that they were not to leave the premise.
They should be done on Tues..

My daughter has a fear that something might happen to JJ's possessions that she has at her house..fire, flood, theft...whatever..it may be unfounded but it is a fear no the less.
Yesterday I suggested that she get a gun safe..One of the really large ones that you couldn't just pick up and move yourself...
I think she's going to do that:)

We went to the dollar store and bought pin wheels, little flag and ornament holders to place at the gravesite...It looks really nice..

We went for lunch and then an ice cream..

Then we headed back to her house to work on cards to send to people that attended the services...
We got about 60 done..and have maybe 50 or 60 left to do..
We had done quite a few shortly after the service..and she has done some here and there..So, that tells you that there were many people that came to pay their respects...
Everyone tells her not to worry about getting cards out, but she wants to get it done...so that is our priority:)

Today is a beautiful day..I have a few windows open, I can here the birds chirping..and I wish I had something to do outside so I could enjoy it more...

I'm actually just working on little projects around the house..I need to go to the store  and get a few things..I wish I had done that before the store gets too busy..lol..but I didn't...

I need to make a menu plan..A new menu plan...lol..we get so tired of  eating the same things...

Well, instead of writing about what I need to do, I'm going to get off of here and actually get some of these things accomplished..lol..

Enjoy your day!!  

Friday, April 4, 2014

Not sure if I'm really feeling doing this entry....
Nothing has changed where my feelings are concerned..My life has been altered in a way I never thought it would be...

Do we move on?? Yes, to some degree anyway...
In other ways, you are stuck..stuck in the knowledge that you can't change what happened..you can't bring back your baby boy..

It seems to me that other people think you should be Normal after a certain amount of time..
That is not totally possible..it appears that we are normal..we move forward with daily routines, work, shopping and such..but inside it is all still there..

I quit my job....My last day was March 28th...There were many reasons as to why I did this..
First and foremost: I wasn't making enough money to live on. I had to also work a part time evening job...Which wouldn't be too bad if I worked at an office during the day..but I didn't..I was on  my feet moving around all day..bending, stretching, lifting..
It was too much..
Secondly: the cna's did not want to take care of the residents properly and I was sick of being a witness to it...to say nothing of the fact that most (the lazy ones) of them put me on ignore because I made a few things known and they didn't like it..to bad, you should have done your job...bitches....

I decided to start a cleaning business..So, I'll clean houses during the day and then work my part time job at night..but at least I will make more than I was, call my own hours and won't have to deal with incompetent workers...
I've had my business cards made. Next step is to put an ad in the paper..which I will do next week...I felt like taking this first week easy...lol...

We will have a lot of difficult days this summer...The one year anniversary of when we last saw JJ...His birthday in August..I want to be able to grieve and celebrate those days without having to worry about spending them at a job...
I don't think people understand or care that these are hard days to  deal with..after a certain (short) amount of time, they really don't want to hear it..
They don't want to hear that you didn't sleep last night because of the pain, they don't want to hear any of it..You are supposed to just do your job...don't be down..don't have an attitude...Don't bring them down...
The ironic part of all of that is that I was actually the one to walk in the door each morning with a positive attitude..Lifting THEIR spirits...jeeeeez really...
It was hard to deal with some of their bad attitudes...really...YOU don't love your job, you don't want to be there....well, be in my shoes....
It was draining to try to keep everyone else positive....

Well, I guess I've ranted enough..No one will see this anyway, since my blog seems to have disappeared...