Monday, May 21, 2012

Laylana...this sweet little girl will not wake up for me..lol..
My sweet Cameron..Out to eat with my daughter and I...


Cameron spent Saturday night with me..We didn't do a whole lot on Saturday..played some games and watched some tv..

Sunday my daughter and I were going to take him to a carnival..the web sight said it started at 10:30am..we got there at 11:00..As it turned out, it didn't start until 12:00.. It was very disappointing..But Cameron handled it well for the most part..

We decided to take him out for lunch to one of our favorite places to go..
Quaker Steak & Lube...oh my gosh..THE best food..the one disappointment that we had is that they are no longer serving sweet potato fries..they were sooo yummy..I guess this place changes it's menu often..lol..maybe not the best place for me to go since I don't like change..lol...

We took Cameron home after a trip to k-mart..he was able to find the newest fad toy that he is into..

I got to spend a few moments with Laylana.. but she will not wake up..
She likes to be awake at night..She is still so darned tiny..and oh the faces she makes when she is sleeping..it is too funny..

My daughter and I are planning a camping trip for this coming week-end...Yay...I took a day of vacation on Friday so we can have an extended week-end..
We will be celebrating Paris's 15 birthday..I can't believe that he is going to be 15 already..time goes by so fast..
Monique and her boyfriend Brian will be coming up Friday after he gets off of work..

My step-daughter Nickie and her three girls will be going camping with us...It should be interesting..lol..
They all love camping so it should be fun..

I think we have everything ready..We spent some time last week going through all of our camping gear and buying what we didn't have..The only things we should have to buy is the cake and any fresh meat we want to grill..

I went to an employment agency today..the woman was VERY nice..we had a great talk.. she would like to find something for me right here in Germantown in the industrial park..the only snag?? they are usually looking for someone that can start right away and I would like to give two weeks notice..but I did tell her that if need be, I could go with a week. I figure I could work both of them for a week if I need too..
So, fingers crossed:)

I also got an application for Jeremy..I'm going to have him fill it out tonight and then take it back tomorrow..they usually do interviews right away..
I just gave him a haircut today..so with a nice outfit, he should make a nice impression...

I'm having some stress involving my brother..I haven't been answering his phone calls..(He has some mental issues that he won't acknowledge).
There is nothing I can do to help him..I have been trying to help him a little financially these last few (well, more than a few) months and I just can't do anymore..
The problem is, he will never be able to keep a job if he doesn't admit he has some issues and actually get help for them..
Plus he has drinking issues..Things are never his fault..someone is always doing something to cause his problems..so on and so forth..

I was not raised to turn my back on anyone..especially my brothers..I just can't do it anymore..
I sent him twenty dollars the other day with a note stating that that was the best I could do..I also told him that I am under a lot of stress also and needed some time to myself..Hoping that he would not call at least for a few days...
Ugh..now as I write this I start crying again..I FEEL SO BAD for not being there for him..

I can't win either way..I feel stress if I help him and I feel stress if I don't..lol..now I'm a mess..

I sometimes try to think of ALL of the times I would have like to have had some help taking care of my Mom. Not that I didn't want to..I just wanted a little help once in a while...
He didn't give me any help until the year before my Mom went into the nursing home..
Oh crap..I don't know what I'll do..I'll just have to take it a day at a time.
I will send him another twenty dollars tomorrow..that's all I can do right now..

Oh well, I guess I've made this post depressing enough..lol..time for me to get it in gear and head out to a few jobs...lol..

Have a good week:)



Monday, May 7, 2012

It was not a good day today:(

I went to drop off the application for the job I talked about. Only to be told that the position had been filled.. I asked if I could leave my application in case something came open and she said no, they don't keep them..
 I was disappointed but what can you do? I guess it wasn't meant to be and I will move forward..
If I have time tomorrow, I will stop at an employment agency that always has ads in the paper..At this point, it certainly can't hurt..

I had a strange experience today..while I was driving no less..
It has happened once before and it scares the heck out of me.
I am fine and then all of a sudden, I feel light headed. It's almost like feeling dizzy..My vision doesn't get blurry but it isn't totally focused..it only lasts a few minutes but it's scary..
Especially since I don't have health insurance..
I am going to try to get into the free clinic tomorrow afternoon.
I don't know if they will do much since the problem happens sporadically. I have had issues in the past with my blood pressure being VERY low..maybe there is a correlation there..Maybe I should keep an eye on that..

I also get strange migraine headaches..although they call them migraines I really don't get severe pain..thank goodness..
But I do get the weird vision before the headache..It's like a shimmering half moon..
I'm thinking that this might have something to do with what is happening now..Oh crap..I just can't afford to have any problems..
 So, if you could, please say a prayer that whatever this is goes away or at the very least, doesn't happen also.

Guess I'll try to get some sleep..I have a whole list of things that I need to take care of tomorrow..

Hope everyone has a great week:) 

Saturday, May 5, 2012



Oh my gosh this computer is giving me a  headache today...

First I had problems with my bank account. I had changed my password yesterday and for some reason I had problems with it today..Finally got that taken care of..
Then wanted to add a few photos to my blog and had to figure out the new format..UGH...

Anyway...I was finally able to post my pictures of yesterdays paint job..
Originally I had only painted the portion above the kitchen cabinets..I wasn't sure I wanted to paint the back splash because the color is a bit dark...
Well, I painted it and I LOVE it..I may not be able to do anything about the ugly counter top and cabinets, but I think the green makes them look better..White in a kitchen just does not work for me..

I'm thinking of doing an accent wall in my bedroom..it needs a punch of color..Just not sure which color to do it in..

My daughter and I along with two of my grandkids and Monique's boyfriend sat outside today for two hours to get coupons for the Dells..We save so much with these..We're able to do things that would otherwise be too costly..
We were smart this time though and took our chairs along..lol..

We will be going to the Dell's at the end of this month for a three day camping trip to celebrate Paris's birthday..hard to believe that he will be 15...oh how time flies...lol...

I will be filling out an application at a factory that Monique's boyfriend Brian works at..Starting pay is about 11.00 an hour..It's only about 13 miles from my house, so the drive wouldn't be too bad and he says the work isn't too hard..
I'm going to keep my fingers crossed that I get hired..It has to be easier than what I'm doing now and the hours would certainly be better..

I would NEVER be a manager again...I am sooo very tired of listening to people complain, not do their work and living with such erratic hours...
 To top it all off..we have a new girl working at the office and in the two weeks that she has been there she has offended every person that works for our company..Including the bosses wife..lol..
She may know office work..but sure doesn't know people..
She has talked condescending to twice now and I've already made up my mind that if it happens again, I'm going to let her know that that is not working with me...

I had estimated her age at last 30's..I just found out that she's only 23...lol...

I got to spend an hour with my newest granddaughter on Thursday..She is still such a little peanut.. Cameron and Destiny were happy to have me spend some time at their house too.. I told them I would come over next week and take them to the park for a bit...
 It's nice to be so loved...and even though they love you when they get older, they just don't have alot of spare time for grandma's..lol..
So you really need to take advantage of it while you can:)

Well, time to get some more stuff done around here...
Hope you're having a wonderful week-end:)

Saturday, April 28, 2012

I do not like the new blog look..I don't do well with change..lol..but honestly, I just don't like it..at least not until I get used to it and then I'll forget that it changed..lol..Hopefully:)

It's been a chilly rainy day..I helped my daughter move some stuff into her new place..Oh, she is not a happy camper..She has lived in a house for so long that making the change to an apartment is not going over well..
Luckily she is on an end unit..so she only has people on three sides.
She has her own entry door which is nice..but the people in one of the other units is LOUD..yelling at he kids at 7:00am..Shannon is already counting down the days until she moves again.
The main reason she moved is because the house she was renting is going into foreclosure. She had lived in the house for almost three years..paying $1,100.00 plus water and utilities..That's a lot for a single mom to put out each month..
Then she finds out that they haven't paid the rent for almost 11 months...Thank goodness the owners live in Vegas or I'm sure she would be paying them a visit that wouldn't go well..

I told her to just put as much money away as she can and keep then start looking for something better..
It's a shame because the rent at this place isn't bad and it's a very cute three bedroom..

Last Wednesday, I got to see my newest granddaughter..along with Destiny and Cameron too..Cameron had a musical at school. His mom and other grandma were there also..It was the Willy Wonka Kids play..Very cute:) After it was over Cameron asked me if I was coming back to his house. I told him that I couldn't because I had some work to do..He was REALLY disappointed..So the took him for ice cream:) He told his mom that he had wanted both of his grandma's to spend the night at his house...I thought that was so cute..I could just picture it..lol..
Baby Laylana didn't cry at all during the play..at the end when there was a lot of clapping she went to sleep...too cute..

I had all of my pictures developed today..235 pictures..lol..I bought a couple of photo albums and I'm going to start one for each of the younger kids..I think it's important for the kids to have them to look back at and remember the time we have spent together..

I called a couple of employment agency's on friday..either no one answered or I was told that someone would call me back..I didn't get any calls..it was really disappointing..I was so looking forward to getting things rolling..I'll try again on Monday and see what happens..

Well, I guess that's it for tonight. I have Mason over and need to give him some more attention before it's time to get some sleep..

Have a wonderful Sunday:)

Sunday, April 22, 2012




My new granddaughter Laylana...She came into the world at 6:50am Friday morning..She weighed 6lbs 15 oz...and 19 inches....

She is a little peanut..and just adorable as you can see...I already love her to pieces and can't wait to spend more time with her..I haven't seen Cameron and Destiny with her yet, but I hear she was welcomed into the family with tons of love from them:)

My ex Carlos was the one that called me Friday to let me know she had been born and was doing fine..During our talk, he mentioned that he wouldn't be able to stay for the week-end because he didn't have anywhere to stay..."Really"...did he think I would offer him a place to stay...omg...Oh well...he is NOT my problem anymore and to be honest with you, I'm still not at a place in my healing where I can be overly comfortable with him yet...That seems so strange to me..My divorce was 4 years ago this month..I truly thought I would be WAY over it by now.. lol...I think I'm mostly healed, just not completely...

Anyway, there is a new little one to help us all enjoy our lives just a little bit more and that's what is important now...
I saw her for a bit on Friday and then I went again today..and being a little worried that I might run into the ex, I forgot my camera...bad grammie...lol...Oh well, no one else was there at the time so I got to visit with Monica and the baby alone:)
Monica is doing well..although she had a c-section and at 28 is finding that she isn't bouncing back as fast as she did with the other two..
The pediatrician came in while I was there and they are watching the baby for jaundice..she is a touch yellow, but not too bad..If it doesn't get any worse, they will be able to go home tomorrow...

I've actually gotten a lot accomplished this week-end..a few loads of laundry, prepared some extra meals for the week ahead and even went to 4 of my buildings to resupply...Just want to get a jump on the week...It seems to go faster when I do this..lol....

Well, that's it for news..I'll post more pictures of my beautiful Laylana when I get some:)

Hope you all have a wonderful week....

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Tomorrow is the BIG day...My granddaughter will be born by 7:15am if all goes according to plan..
I hope that I'll be able to get as close to her as I am with the older kids..It's so different now that I'm not married to Monica's dad anymore..

I'm going to go to see Monica and the baby at 1:00pm..My ex is supposed to be there at 4:00..so hopefully he will stick to that schedule and I won't have to worry about running into him..

I have to head out to the store in the morning to get a cute outfit for the baby and probably a little something for mommy...I was going to go this evening but I'm running out of steam..I've been up since 4:30am helping out at one of our restaurants..then my daughter wanted to go look at a van..and since she was so nice to go with me when I bought mine, I didn't want to let her down..
She has one more to look at tomorrow and then she should be able to make her decision..she is so sick of looking at cars online that she said if the one tomorrow doesn't work out, she is done for a couple of months..lol..It is nerve wracking doing all of that research online...and she has done plenty..

Not too much is new otherwise..I'm still plugging along with my job..I had all intentions of getting to a couple of employment agency's this week, but that didn't happen..so I'll have that on the top of my list for next week...Keep your fingers crossed for me that they can line me up with something..

I had to put up new curtain rod brackets yesterday..Because we have vertical blinds on the windows, I needed brackets that extended further out...and believe me, it isn't easy to find extendable brackets..I finally found them at bed, bath and beyond..thank goodness..

Now I want to find new curtains for my room and Jeremys too..He only has one window so it shouldn't be too expensive...I'm not sure what I want for mine yet..I am one of those people that will know it when I see it..lol...

Well, time to get some dishes done..and maybe a load of laundry...Naw, I think I'll just do the dishes....lol...

Yay for Fridays.....It can't come soon enough for me:)

Saturday, April 7, 2012

I feel bad that I am ALWAYS blogging about the same things...Especially my job..But that's my life..and not much else happens..lol..

My boss acquired yet another restaurant..UGH..and the night supervisor can't take care of it until a cleaner is hired because he is covering one of the other restaurants until at least Monday..

I am so tired today..I even went to bed this afternoon for a nap..which was escaping me..I think I'm overtired..FINALLY fell asleep only to be woken up 20 minutes later by the boy across the street bouncing his basketball in the street..And then 10 minutes after I was awake, he stopped...TOO LATE..

Enough complaining for now..lol...

I wasn't going to do Easter baskets this year..Trying to keep the candy out of the house..but it didn't seem like Easter without doing something, so I'm making an Easter platter for my daughter and kids and one for my house..I didn't buy too much candy though..
I did color eggs last night..it was strange to do that by myself..I usually have one of the little ones here to help me..But of course I can't do that because of cleaning the restaurant..

Next week after I am done doing the night thing, I'm going to get one night of good sleep and then I'm going to hit all of the temp agency's in my area..
At this point, I would take anything that is long term..As long as I can make enough to make my bills I will be happy..
I only know I can't do this anymore..

For Easter dinner, my daughter, kids and I were going to go out for brunch..but when I talked to my friend Lisa today, she again invited us over to her house..I said yes..She wouldn't accept my offer to help pay for the dinner. So, I thought I would take her a nice floral centerpiece..It's always nice to get flowers:)

Well, it's 2:30 and I think I'll try to sleep...AGAIN..lol...

Happy Easter!!!